She said, "I'm thinking that I can get over you." Late night conversations plague her memory as she remembers the first intense conversation that let her in and underneath, the sheeted barrier of protection that she held close like it was her everything. Fearful of pains past reoccurring in her reality, timidly she free fell into the unknown,praying that there would be a soft landing....but there wasn't. The premature kiss of lips. The premature caress of fingertips, attached to conversation that led to mental, emotional, and intense physical sensations, national security classified, one word ORGASMIC... led to a permanently bruised heart because the experience was so short lived...
There's a quote that I love. It says "the hunger for love is harder to remove than the hunger for bread". Mother Teresa said that. She's right. We crave so much for someone to share our lives with. We want someone to wake up to, or to fall asleep next to...Perhaps one of the saddest realities is the fact that when people have it, they don't always know what they're holding on to. And what's even sadder is sometimes they let it go...Don't get me wrong, some people are definitely NOT meant to be. Some people are legit just after physical gratification as opposed to an actual long-lived loving relationship. I can't lie, I've been there a time or two...but I can't imagine continuously living a life where everyday there is a different person I wake up to. (Not to mention EWWWW! On some realness, STIs aint poppin, and after a certain age SMFH, get your life together!) I'm just saying, as much as I hate heartache and as much as I hate starting over, I'd rather push myself to get over the last person that I was really in love with to at least be able to say, even if it didn't last, and even if it's a while to the next time around, I EXPERIENCED IT! I mean eventually I'll get that "I'll love you forever" type of love that ACTUALLY has longevity lol....but in the mean time I guess...
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