Lies

I keep lying to myself every time I see you. I keep telling myself the 
lie that I'm over, and that I won't attempt to persuade and that I don't 
want to try, and I keep saying that I, am keeping it moving and staying 
on my one side but I cannot hide what it is that I feel inside because 
I'd be commiting a crime against this heart of mine if I were to say 
that when I see you my heart does not skip a beat. My heart skips a 
beat, and it humms a melody that sings ♪ I want you to be my baby. 
Because you get to me, in a way that I've never seen, I keep trying to 
get in thinking that you might let me, or that you have let me. Damn 
you're just so fly to me that it's enough to keep me awake. You got me 
wide awake from the first day we spake, had me questioning like "wait" 
and my feelings haven't changed, it's been over a year and I still feel 
the same, dang, like the night you opened up it was like my whole body 
quaked, cuz my thoughts were of you both my heart and soul ached, and 
they still ache cuz it seemed like I was close but I'm so fucking far 
away, so I just put away my thoughts of you for another day as I admit 
that I, I can no longer lie. I feel how I feel and my feelings can't be 
denied, but as my eyes lock with yours as a challenge to you, I sigh. 
Then I ask myself one more time, what the hell, what's one more lie?