I'm Sorry

I'm sorry.....once again I feel a need to apologize. Yes. I've lied and 
played with your mind, and blinded your eyes so not even you could see 
what was really real and how you should really feel so you got hung up 
on this ideal or this fantasy that left you feeling jaded with another 
"newfound clarity" that people are all the same. I'm sorry...once again 
I've allowed you to be subjected to the mercy of others. I've surrounded 
you with people that you can care about, and you care about, think 
about, constantly help out, like you have to be the saver of the free 
world, perhaps because no one saved you and your world, it crashed and 
burned, so when they stop caring that you care....you're the one that's 
left hurt. I'm sorry....you have to deal with another day of the same 
old same old. I presented the illusion that things had changed, and the 
results wouldn't be the same, and for once your efforts wouldn't be a 
waste (of your precious time, mind and energy) but so easily you gave of 
yourself, perhaps too willingly and once again: scene repeat.....I know 
how you said it was ok...but I'm sorry....I keep damaging you. I've 
dropped you and while you may chip, you don't break like glass, but with 
the smile on your face, I see through to your soul just like glass, and 
it's a fact that no troubles don't last always, but I acknowledge the 
fact that sorry is such a repeated phrase, so for another day, I'll be 
the cliche and be the first one to say the words that no one else will 
ever say....I'm sorry.....as I look into your sad eyes, confused eyes, 
and see your wavering smile I sigh because once again I'm apologizing to 
I....I'm sorry